pyar par bas to nahi

This is a lovely song by Talat Mahmood, from the movie
'सोने की चिडिया' . And its picturised on Nutan! yayyyyyyyyyy!
Music: O.P.Nayyar Lyrics:Sahir Ludhianvi

Good quality audio

here.

Nice Lata song(Saagar Kinaare):

bas me hi nahi warnaa hum ud ke chale aayen:(

This is a song "जो हम पे गुज़रती है"
from 'मोहब्बत इसको कहते हैं'.
Music by Khayyam, lyrics by Majrooh Sultanpuri
and sung beautifully by Suman Kalyanpur.
I love her voice, very peaceful!



जो हम पे गुज़रती है
तन्हा किसे समझाएं
तुम ही तो नहीं मिलते
जाएँ तो किधर जाएँ

समझा है ना समझेगा
इस गम को यहाँ कोई
बेदर्दों की बस्ती है
हमदर्द कहाँ कोई
जो सिर्फ तुम्हारा है
वो दिल किसे दिखलायें
वो दिल किसे दिखलायें
जो हम पे गुज़रती है
तन्हा किसे समझाएं

जब जान-ए-वफ़ा तेरी फुरकत ना सताएगी
वो सुबह कब आएगी वो शाम कब आयेगी
कब तक दिल-ऐ-नादान को हम वादों से बहलायें
हम वादों से बहलायें
तुम ही तो नहीं मिलते
जायें तो किधर जाएँ

आ जा कि मोहब्बत की मिटने को हैं तस्वीरें
पहरें हैं निगाहों पे और पाँव में जंजीरें
बस मैं ही नहीं वरना हम उड़ के चले आयें
हम उड़ के चले आयें
बस मैं ही नहीं वरना हम उड़ के चले आयें
हम उड़ के चले आयें

जो हम पे गुजरती हैं
तन्हा किसे समझाएं

water wars

Read this excerpt from a book by Vandana Shiva:

Water Wars

Also read about

Ganga's Last Roar

Shame that the respect for our holiest river is superficial!
Jai ho hypocrisy!

Lyrics from Bommarillu Song: Appudo Ippudo Yeppudo

Song lyrics for my friend Rawat to sing it.

अप्पुडो इप्पुडो येप्पुडो कल्लागनान्ने चेली
अक्क्डो इक्क्डो येक्क्डो मनस इच्चाने मरी
कलवो अलवो वलवो ना ऊहल हासिनी
मदिल्लो कलगा मेदिले ना कल्लल सुहासिनी
येवुर एम् अन्कुन्ना ना मनस अन्ते नुवे ने अनी

तीपि कन्ना इंका तीयानैना नेन्ने येदी अंटे वेंटने नी पेरअनी अन्टाने
हाइय कन्ना इंका हाइदैना चोटे एमिटअंटे नुवु वेल्ले दारी अन्टाने
नीलाला आकासम ना नीलम येदन्टे नी वालू कल्लल्लो उनदंनी अन्टाने

नन्नू नेन्ने चाला टिटकुंटा
नीतो सूटिगा ई माटलएवी चेप्पका पोतुंटे
नन्नू नेन्ने बागा मेच्चुकुंटा
येदो चिन्ना माटे नुवु नातो माटलाडावन्टे
नातोने नेनुंटा नीतोडे नाकुन्टे
येदएदो आइपोतादी नी जत लेकुंटे


Music: Devi Sri Prasad
Singer: Siddharth
Year: 2006

ps: you can get a high-quality vid of this song from:

http://vikramaniac.blogspot.com/2008/06/divx-bommarillu-video-songs-high.html

dutch football

I have never enjoyed reading anything more that this article.
http://www.ajax-sc.nl/voetbal/kuper.html
Miles ahead at the top of my pyramid of respect.
No wonder I was a fan of the Dutch throughout the 90s. But then Zizu caught
my attention and I rooted for the French team, not that I stopped rooting for
the Dutch. But now Zizu has retired, so Im back with the Dutch:)
I want to find a documentary on Total Football and Johan Cruyff. Let me google.

ps: When I watched the movie Austin Powers Goldmember, I couldnt understand
why the Dutch were shown to be hated/despised. I asked an English lad and he
didnt have a clue.

garbage processing

Garbage
I am obsessed with garbage.

Everyday I walk to my office I see the garbage truck and the workers who pick up garbage from local dumps with their bare hands. As I walk past them I wonder how much these guys are paid, I am not sure but I think they are paid the absolute minimum, they are not even permanent workers and probably work on a daily contact basis, they don't have protective gear and it probable that they don't even have a second set of clothes. I daydream of opening up a garbage collection company and setting up a great infrastructure of collecting and recycling, and paying these guys exorbitantly, I daydream of becoming a dictator and setting up an efficient resource usage system:p.
Every time I use something or buy something or throw something, I ask myself where did this come from and where will this end up?
I cannot resist and draw an analogy to programming in C, where I have to keep account of every piece of memory I have allocated for my use and I am responsible for restoring that piece of resource that I have no furthur use, I need to make sure that I dont leave behind garbage(a resource that nobody has any use of), it is my responsibility. If I dont take care of the garbage in real life, nature takes care of it in most cases and through the slow process of decomposition, the garbage is processed and is returned back to its origin, but in a computer hardware, there is no such natural decomposition, memory leaks will lead to accumulative memory usage and soon the computer will crash.
Fortunately Nature is more hardy, more robust, but for how long will it suffer the ever-growing demands of the human kind.
Unfortunately Nature does not have a reset button and is infinitely complex to debug and fix memory leaks, the only way is to have a good initial design.
Fortunately the design process used by nature is perfect:-). Its called Evolution.
Unfortunately humans have found a way to disrupt it, with insane consumption of resources and bio-engineering.
Fortunately as I said before, Nature's design is perfect, so it will have the last word! So all you environmentalists, keep up the good work, never fear and never despair, there may not be a reset button, but the Phoenix shall rise again from the ashes and Earth shall be beautiful and wondrous once again.

Processing waste
Nature has been doing efficient garbage processing long before baba adam(before man).
Whenever I see ants roaming about the kitchen picking up pieces of food or something that was left over I dont twist my face in dismay at the mess, rather a sense of wonder crosses my mind, these guys are cleaning up for me, free of cost. I used to look at pigs with disgust when they would eat from garbage dumps, but not anymore. I have new-found respect for Vultures, in fact if I recall correctly there is a community somewhere near Lahaul/Ladakh which leaves its dead to the vultures, thats a great way to decompose:p

Man the smartass has tried to clean up his shit and failed:
I recently came across an article where the Chinese used a certain kind of fish to clean up the pollution in one of its great lakes and then selling those fish, an appropriate time for the sayings sone pe suhaga or sanp bhi mar gaya aur laathi bhi nahi tooti or ek teer se do shikaar:p. Haha, they effectively moved the toxins up the food chain to the people, yup we at the top of the food chain will gloriously gobble up the very toxins we created, how responsible. Sarcasm apart, this is what happens when toxins in the form of pesticides move up the food chain - Biomagnification(if you puke, its not my fault, so be forewarned, its the most sickening thing you will read, especially if you live here).
On reddit.com another interesting comment by mjd, was how scientists were using brussel sprouts as botanical vaccum cleaners to sucks up poisonous metals and toxins from the soil. But as the commenter asks, what of the sprouts, where do we dispose them. We just moved the problem around. Seems like the only solution is to go to the source of the problem and fix it.

I am a Greenpeace follower and you can find more about their efforts to fight toxins and e-waste here. So the next time you are planning to throw away your computer, think carefully where it will end.

Googling on garbage processing got me some interesting results:
1. Super article on Bio-Degradable materials by Jantar mantar - a science magazine for children based out of IIT Madras. Must read. Here are the average times taken to bio-degrade by some products:

Cotton rags -------------------------- 1-5 months
Paper --------------------------------- 2-5 months
Orange peels ------------------------ 6 months
Cigarette butts ---------------------- 1 to 5 years
Plastic-coated paper milk cartons ------ 5yrs
Leather shoes ---------------------- 25 to 40 years
Nylon fabric ----------------------- 30 to 40 years
Tin cans ---------------------------- 50 to 100 years
Glass bottles ---------------------- 1 million years
Plastic bottles --------------------- FOREVER

2. Another is a canadian environmental site explaining how garbage gets processed in landfills and its failure. The solution is to install the 4 Rs: Reduce, Reuse, Recycle and Recover into our daily routine.
For the lazy I will copy/paste the foll para:

Reducing the amount of waste we produce is by far the most effective way to battle the flow of garbage into the landfill. Packaging makes up about half our garbage by volume, one-third by weight.

• When you shop, try to find products that have little or no packaging.

What we cannot Reduce we should try to Reuse.

• Repair you old radio rather than buying a new one.
• Use jars, tins, and plastic containers to store leftovers, bulk foods and household items.
• Buy durable, good quality products that will last.

Materials and packaging that cannot be reused should be recycled at home, work and school. You can contribute to recycling by purchasing recycled and recyclable products.

• At the store, ask yourself these questions: can this product or its packaging be reused or recycled? Was it produced form recycled materials? Whenever possible, choose products that meet these criteria.

Finally, Recover energy from wastes that cannot be used for something else. This fourth R is difficult to put into practice by individuals, and is geared more toward industry.

This makes me wonder how is garbage processed here? I have to find out. I have seen Landfills in Delhi though: huge heaps of trash, vultures/hawks flying low, rag-picker silhouettes, large bulldozers and the setting sun, all in the same visual frame. A terrible sight.

By the way these landfills are nothing compared to our beaches and the greatest garbage collector award goes to the North Pacific Gyre.

A great way to reduce the waste you send to some landfill is Composting (Nature's own recycling program).
I found a super site explaining this process nicely. There's also a startup in Bangalore selling home-compost products. Although their website design is awful, I hope their products are nice and wish them success.

And now for some history:), Composting as you might have guessed is an age-old process.

As a natural process, "composting" has been taking place since the initiation of plant life on earth. Early man no doubt learned to use manures and planted in soil enriched by natural decay. Historians have traced composting and the use of compost in Europe to the Roman Marcus Cato over 2000 years ago.

The first important advance in the practice of composting was made by Sir Albert Howard almost 75 years ago in India. He systemized the traditional procedure into a composting method he called the Indore process. This process involved stacking alternate layers of animal mature, sewage sludge, garbage, organic matter, such as straw, leaves, and municipal refuse. The material was stacked to a height of about 5 feet or was placed in specially constructed pits 2 to 3 feet deep.

There, like my fellow countrymen I have fallen into the trap of attributing all age-old traditional historical practices to indian origin:p. Joking, I am sure this was a standard practice in many places.

Is there a God for the environmentalists:p, how I wish I could change history and add a chapter in the Puranas where Mahadev Shiv punishes the polluters and destroyers of nature. More recently I wonder why dont the so called relegious fanatics protest the pollution of Ganga, how could they let anybody build a dam on our holiest of rivers.
But seriously I pray that people own up their garbage and be more responsible. Respect every particle in the Universe. Isnt this the most important of Upanishadic sayings -
Tat Tvam Asi

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ps: No, I am not comparing automatic garbage collection to natural decomposition. This is not that strong an analogy, apologies to Dijkstra.
pps: I like ants, but I don't like cockroaches, yes I am a hypocrite.
ppps: Ujjwal baby just pointed out to me that Vultures will soon be extinct in S.Asia. WTF!!!!!!!!!

Song Lyrics: Ajeeb Saaneha

अजीब सानेहा मुझ पर गुज़र गया यारों

अजीब सानेहा मुझ पर गुज़र गया यारों
मैं अपने साये से कल रात डर गया यारों

हर एक नक्श तमन्ना का हो गया धुंधला
हर एक ज़ख्म मेरे दिल का भर गया यारों

भटक रही थी जो कश्ती वो ग़र्क-ऐ-आब हुई
चढा हुआ था जो दरिया उतर गया यारों

वह कौन था वो कहाँ का था क्या हुआ था उसे
सुना है आज कोई शक्स मर गया यारों

Movie: Gaman -1979
Singer: Hariharan
Music: Jaidev

Meanings:

सानेहा: Misfortune/Mishap
साये: shadow
कश्ती : boat
ग़र्क-ऐ-आब: sink to the river bed (i think)
दरिया: river
नक्श : image
तमन्ना : hope
धुंधला : hazy/dusty

Identity

Who am I?
What do I like?
Where is my home?
Where am I from?
Where is my mother from?
Where is my father from?
Where is my mother's father from?
Where is my father's mother from?
Where is my mother's father's mother from?
Where is my father's mother's father from?
Where is my mother's father's mother's father from?
Where is my father's father's father's father's father's father's mother from?
Where is my mother's mother's mother's mother's mother's father's father's mother from?

Identity.

my quotes and misc;)

(*)
empty cup is better than a partly filled cup.
empty cup is better than a full cup.

but a full cup is better than a partly filled cup.




(*)
what happens when you pour more into a full cup?

(*)
The purpose of life is to be on time.

(*)
To know what you want will bring unhappiness.

(*)
You are a product of your environment, mostly!

(*)
There is no absolute truth ; only balance.


Every man is entitled to his eccentricities.

Nutan

आइना मुझसे

आइना मुझसे मेरी पहली सी सूरत मांगे
मेरे अपने मेरे होने कि निशानी मांगे

में भटकता ही रहा, दर्द के वीराने मे
वक़्त लिखता रहा चेहरे पे हर पल का हिसाब
मेरी शोहरत मेरी दीवानगी कि नज़र हुई
पी गयी मय कि बोतल मेरे गीतों कि किताब
आज लौटा हूँ तो हँसने कि अदा भूल गया
ये शहर भूला मुझे, में भी इसे भूल गया
मेरे अपने मेरे होने कि निशानी मांगे
आइना मुझसे मेरी पहली सी सूरत मांगे

मेरा फन फिर मुझे बाज़ार में ले आया है
ये वो जां है कि जहाँ मेह्र-ओ-वफ़ा बिकते हीं
कोक बिकती है, सर बिकते हैं, दिल बिकते हैं
इस बदलती हुई दुनिया का खुदा कोई नही
सस्ते दामों हर रोज़ खुदा बिकते हैं, बिकते हैं ..
मेरे अपने मेरे होने कि निशानी मांगे
आइना मुझसे मेरी पहली सी सूरत मांगे


Movie: Daddy
Singer: Talat Aziz
Music: Rajesh Roshan

Meanings:
आइना = mirror
पहली सी सूरत = erstwhile face
निशानी = sign/evidence
भटक = wander
वीराने = wilderness/ruins
फन = artistic-skill/talent
शोहरत = fame
दीवानगी = madness/passion
नज़र = bad eye
मय = liquor
मेह्र-ओ-वफ़ा = promises of help/kindness
कोक = womb

abstraction and non-duality

Abstraction is the favourite past-time of not only scientists and java programmers but also of philosophers. But then abstraction is built into the human brain. Civilization and probably all human progress can be directly attributed to abstraction.

There is also a dark side to abstraction. Like in the previous post it is also a root for many social problems.
People will use abstraction and extrapolate the constituent's property to the whole.
A muslim terrorist evokes fear and distrust in the common man for the whole community.
A snake-charmer will cause the whole of India to be looked at as an exotic country of oriental magic.
The rest of india will see every south indian as a madrasi and all south indian languages are the same to him, the westerner will call the language the indians speak as indian.
A dumb answer by a Miss USA paegant will give an image of all Americans being stupid.
A rude Israeli tourist causes all Israelis to be adjudged as mean unfriendly people.
Shanghai makes all of China look like the land of gold and oppurtunity.
A chowkidaar at Dzongri will mistake every man not Sikkimese as Bengali:p

okay now for its dual:
If people would see unity in everything there would be peace everywhere.

People clean up their homes, every speck of dust is cleared and every corner wiped crystal, but they throw that garbage right outside their home. Why cant all of the world be their home.
Countries dump their e-waste, nuclear waste and other hazardous wastes in other third world countries.
People say hes Indian I will help him, hes American I dont like him, hes Muslim hes my brother, hes Buddhist hes infidel, he is rich I will envy him, hes poor I will show sympathy, hes evil I hate him, hes boring I will avoid him, hes this and that bla blaa blaa.
Thats a duck, I can eat it, thats a hill let me destroy it and extract aluminium, thats a tree I will cut it and make a sofa. one can go on and on.
There is a spiritual term for this: non-duality.
Duality is ofcourse the existence of 2 extremes/ends, like good and evil. But lets in this context refer to duality as multi-ality(I dont think this is a word but you understand rt)
Abstraction then is the tool with which one slides from one end of duality to the other, non-duality. It depends on how one uses it or applies it, hence it can both alleviate and increase a particular problem.

No matter how much I try to find an absolute, an objective truth I end up with a subjective,middle way path.

variable

The root of many problems arises from the following:
People try to define something that cannot be defined, they try to make connections when the connections themselves are either invalid, non-sensible in the first place, or changing(yes analogies are dangerous), they try to bind a value to a variable thinking it is immutable, they live in the misconception that the value is the same as the variable, they cannot distinguish between the two.
Let me give some simple examples, but before that let me explain some of the terminology I have used:
Events(anything that happens) are values and Nouns(anything that is) are variables.
- Help someone, you will be termed a good man
- Steal, you will be called a thief all your life.
The action becomes the actor and vice-versa.

Life as a Dictionary

I am fond of analogies. To come up with them is fun, most are silly and are not worth recording, but this one I like, howsoever silly it may be.
This happens a lot to me.

I come across something I dont understand, lets say some word. I want to find out, what does it mean. So I pick up the dictionary, and open it, a random page, I wont find it at the first flip of the page, I flip some more, I am too far from my destination, I flip again, I reach some page and my eye rests on some interesting(curious) word, I start reading its entry, that was nice, I continue reading the words below that entry, nice, after a while I lose interest, what was I doing, ohh I was searching for a word I believe, but what was that word, I forget, I try to remember it, but it evades me, I become impatient and frustrated, what was the bloody word, after much deliberation I do recall what I was searching in the first place, I see I am not there, I flip again, and some more, my eyes are distracted by so many words, so many interesting, delicious words, waiting to be enjoyed, I stop, I indulge, reading all those words, sticking at no particular word, just sequentially start reading, sometimes darting to the next page and the next, with no sign of focus, the original aim lost in the jungle of words, its not bad, its fun for a while, one learns, but then something is missing, there is a stress that comes from not being where one should be, but why, I am confused, what am I doing, I am looking at some words, but why, why am I holding this dictionary, what was I doing, ohh I remember I was trying to search for a word, what was that word, shit, I forgot, bloody I wasted so much time, and I still havent found that word, I dont know where I am, I kick myself and curse, what was that word I was looking for........
....ad infinitum

The dictionary is your life, the words the physical , mental and the spiritual worlds and the word that the seeker was originally looking for can be the purpose of life or anything for that matter.


ps: I do always recall in the end what word I was looking for. But then on this side of the analogy things are much simpler.

pps: Djiskstra has some interesting things to say about analogies, I misplaced his article, this is a reminder for me to update this post.

Dreams

Note: This will be an incremental post.



1. Broadly 2 types, Lucid dreams and non-lucid. Lucid dreams are easier to remember whatever little we do. Non-lucid are just random neuron activity which touches a lot of memories and probably the brain tries to stitch up a story on-the-fly in quick hindsight, making sense of things that aren't meant to be. Lucid dreams don't make more sense, but you clearly feel you're playing a part, either active or passive, either actor or observer, it feels like your watching a movie and you can analyze and respond to various scenes, you kinda know that this is a dream(some of the time) and sometimes even make it a point to remember it, only if u try real hard and tell your mind that I want to remember this dream can u hope for the tiniest recollection.

2. Different postures, different places ---> Different dreams.
If you sleep facing(feet towards) south, you will have high dream activity, you u face sleeping west probably you wont have nice dreams, facing north is normal activity, facing east don't remember, probably less dreams:p
I normally sleep over my friend's places a lot, there was one particular house of Jaat where he stayed for a year or more, I always used to get dreams of an actor or some drama, some art thing, the theme was always the same each time. Once I slept at this horrible place called Kasol in HP, which is full of pot-smoking Israelis I had the most potent dream of skulls/death/yam-dev. Every place has got an aura, certain vibrations/waves, an environment and it definitely interferes with your mind waves. Also if somebody's sleeping close by, his waves/dreams can interfere yours, I once asked Jaat did he dream of Italy and he said yes, he was enjoying the detailed architecture at Rome IIRC;).

3. There is no sense of real time in dreams. There is no relation between how much time is passing outside in the real world and within your dream.
for e.g., when I was young I often fell of my bed and every time I fell, I remember having the dream of walking on a mountain ridge, the ridge is getting thinner and then its as sharp as razor blade and then I fall, it seems like hours or at least a long time, but my falling off the bed would have been just some fraction of a second, the brain reconstructs a whole scenario, how brilliantly fooled we are by our minds:).

4. I sometimes get dreams which has to do something with what happened the previous day, that plus some hidden memory plus some activity makes up something, but most of the time my dreams main elements, actors and other components come from my long-term memory, things that have long past gone, if not that things that have/had the slightest impact on me, things that I am/was sure are not important sometimes are the main highlights, that surprises me very much, it like the brain is scanning itself and found hidden things behind the corner attic, wonder whats the trigger/key.


5. When you need to wake up at some pre-determined time, if before sleeping you make a mental note of the time you want to get up, invariably the sleep is not as deep as otherwise and astonishingly the internal wake-up call works like a charm with an error-window of an hour at the maximum. The sleep not being as deep or fulfilling one tends to get more dreams.

6. Updated [December 9th 2011]: The kind/type of dream you get also depends on the exact time at which you go to sleep. It seems like the human dream is related to the cosmic dream (what in sanskrit is called maya). Its just a bunch of waves/equations that have a lot of parameters and something inexplicable happens as the output. The same should hold for research I guess, lot of research work/reading/exploring might not give a great idea by itself, but one incident of waking at the wrong time, going to a shop in a unusual roundabout way, watching a man fall asleep on the train, might just spark an in inexplicable chain of events that lead to that idea. Well, I dont believe that so much, it has to be more deterministic, more like what Littlewood says.
[Today I went to sleep at 10AM and woke at 4pm, I dreamt something completely different from anything I remember from before, i.e. I would classify this dream in a *new* category]

a computer geek's analogy.

What is happiness, the word being one of the basic building blocks of the vocabulary/dictionary is a little difficult to explain/define. Lemme assume the foll meaning:

Happiness: State of Non-Conflict.

Left side of the equation: Mind in view of Buddhist/EasternPhil Ideas and the concept of Closure.
[
Meditation: Nothingness(Hindu School), Mindfullness(Buddhist School), supposedly is a state of immense calm and peace.
Closure is a term in psychology which means broadly coming to terms emotionally with tragedy, or rapidly ending the misery caused by grievous loss. People recovering from love affairs also sometimes yearn for closure. If we generalise this, we can say that any incomplete thing in ur life demands closure, its like "completing" an incomplete circle, and this drives human nature(on of the many drivers). So every human seeks closure, and until he finds that he knows no peace.
]

Right side of the equation: Operating System(Linux/Windows) Processes.
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At any given time in the runtime of a operating-system(Computer) there are numerous processes, some active, some sleeping/waiting, some dead, some runaway(out of control). They do the computation and other work on the user's behalf, for eg: play a movie, retrieve data from archives, chat etc. Processes can spawn other child-processes and so on.
Abbr: OS = Operating System
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Analogy(the equation):

Our Mind can be compared to a computer, an OS, managing innumerable activities and thoughts. A normal meditative state is one where no active computation is taking place. One can say all the processes are in inactive or sleeping state. The buddhist medidative mindfullness can be compared to a super-active *ps*(a command that lists all active processes) process that watches all the active processes without interfering. The human mind knows no rest and is continuously spawning new processes, each process contributing something to the mental patterns(RAM or hard-disk memory) and to the very thing it is part of. This thing(OS) keeps changing its form unlike the non-changing OS kernel that runs in a computer. New processes are spawned from the interaction of user and computer, that is the interaction between the environment/surroundings and the mind. The environment need not be external, it may also be internal(memory/RAM/hard-disk). Now normally in a computer OS there is a distinct link between the parent process and the child process, and hence its easier to control and make sense of conventional processes than the mental processes which seem intractable. In an OS, a runaway process is one which has gone awry and out-of-control, whose parent has lost it. An active runaway process, will eat away at ur computation cycles(ur mental cycles) and you wont even know it. Now lets go back to the definition of happiness and to the concept of closure. Lets say all ur active and sleeping processes are not malicious and in control, so it is the runaway processes that contribute to the state of mental conflict, bcos the concept of closure dictates that the runaway processes(incomplete) terminate(complete) normally, but u have no way to control them or you are ignorant of their existence. So a happy computer;) wud be one which has no runaway processes - state of non-conflict. Now how to close these processes?
Btw the very awareness or knowledge that there are runaway processes eating away at ur mental peace will pave the way, without which you will never get out of the conflict state.
There are two ways to obtain closure:
1. Hook into the runaway process and allow it to complete/terminate normally. Normal Closure.
2. *kill -9* (an OS command that forcefully terminates processes). Forced Closure.
Both are difficult.

Note: Incomplete, will close the blog some other day, until that day I will know no complete peace;) [EDIT: Actually thats not true, the blog post is of course still incomplete, just like most (non-mathematical) theories are.]

an enlightening experiment

I found a way to get out of the 'stuck in emotion' trap.
ofcourse it can be used in other situations as wekk, for example its
a good exercise towards a quest of self-discovery/analysis.

heres how:
At any arbitrary point of time, if its possible, try to find out
what emotion ur going thru, i mean try to label the undergoing emotion
in ur mind. The moment u identify, infact the very process will pop you
out of that particular emotive state. ofcourse u can say this is nothing
but replacing ur emotive state of mind with a rational mode of 'finding out',
and hence is very obvious, the after-effect i mean. but wats perplexing is that
most people dont even seem to be even aware of such a thing, infact if u do
this often, u will have that better control over urself, u will have discovered
more abt you and hence technically you wud be farther on the road to
self-enlightenment than many. phew...thats a lot of cliches;)

pls do try this on urself. it is quite fascinating.

Disclaimer: I do not say this is original,pathbreaking stuff, I think
every Buddist and NLP practictioner must have similar exercises,
jus that im sure I didnt consciously plagiarize. But maybe it was my
unconscious which came up with this taking input from the various
eastern philosophy books I must have read.

Addon: This simple experiment probably occurred to me when I was
striving to distinguish between feeling and thinking.

questions which might need to be reasarched

Currently I am looking at various Text Classification methods and later on will
be delving into the area of Information Extraction.

Now there are many classification algorithms which weight word/text in
various manners leading to different accuracy results.
Now my question is what are the possible parameters/dimensions of the
input text which wud in a non-statistical way give you the most
appropriate classification method to use.
So one wud know exactly which classification method wud serve him best
for his particular domain or problem.

symmetry

my first day at office after my long trek in Dhaula Dhar Range(HP).

yesterday I had hurt myself on my right palm and right kneee, superficial surface
wounds.
today while riding to office, I skidded over some mud and hurt my left palm
and left knee at exactly mirror-symmetrical positions.

donno wat to make of it.

no Part2

sorry ppl i wont be writing part-2: Lords of the Rocks! no will or motivation:(
I lost this thing that I can't explain. anyway lemme note down some thoughts that ve'been with me for some time, bfore I lose them too.

-> dreams - what do they mean, how do we interpret them, is it the link between the conscious and the unconscious, ...
->karma - do ppl actually get to work on what they love, which jobs in world from an objective lean angle are the most enjoyable, wat are the ingredients of satisfied work life, the concept of work as explained by Krishna in the Bhagavad-Gita -- shud that be blindly accepted, why work, does my work has meaning in life, in this world? ...
->transient - the non-permanent nature of human emotions, moods, thoughts, our very existence!
the role time plays in our lives, how time is an important characteristic of certain emotions, for eg joy is momentary while happiness is a more permanent from a temporal standpoint.
->spellbound - have ever had this feeling that you have something on ur mind, something very important but are unable to express it via ur thoughts/language/vocabulary.
Just like the finite cannot model or explain the infinite, is our linguistic framework insufficient to express all our mind waves, bcos after all everything we say, think or write, we do it through the medium of language. But surely we all had our moments when we were spellbound:), is there a way to extend this framework in a rational/scientific way, for eg one can actually approximate infinity mathematically by using limits;).

There are a couple of more trains of thoughts but I guess these are more than enough for the timebeing to elaborate on. I dont give myself a time-frame to write abt these, i guess i will just incrementally post my driftings:)